` Claire

Thursday, June 7, 2007

I falling in love with a new song sing by LAURA FYGI "How do i win your heart". Quite a Emo song but really a nice song.. I simply love it so much, wanna to share with u all but too bad i can't find it on internet cos i burn it into my laptop.

Well, i met him today at my work place. Surprise to see him came all the way down to restaurant to take photo shot.. It's been 2 months i didn't see him, and really really have alot of things to talk to him but he still angry with me so we dun really have much topic when i speak to him.. Seem like argue but we are not.. Wanna to hug him but i never cos my whole body stop me...Well MAybe the two of us are too tired to carry on any topic related ba so make a decision of letting nature take place, means instead of us creating chances and problem we shall let nature take over. IF we really fated to carry on the usual life we will but not den we still can be friend. Anyway he still piss with me so let time heal everything ba. Or maybe time to heal my wound. It's deeply cut now and bleeding everyday. NO guy can be the medicine to cure my wound but only him. BUT salt keep added every single moment. Well.. Nature ba~ IAN i promise u i will not think about our problem anymore.

I rejected a guy yesterday. Now i understand the feeling of loved by someone ish better den i loved someone. But indeed i hurt him too much, I promise him i will give him chance two weeks ago but i realize tat i really can't get over ian. If i accept him means i'm e ian and he ish me.. He will get hurt by someone he love most which ish me but to me i dun feel anything. He willing to do so many things for me but wat i can do ish "THANKS" but not to give my heart.. This guy ish always there when i'm down but i really dun wish to step into relationship with him. I rather we are friend den couple. At least friend last forever,but couple once break there's no way we could go back to friend. I rather now tgt with a guy tat i have feel but not important in future. At least i won't get hurt badly.

At the end of everything i guess only Mike/Regi/Jack understand how i feel. After so many fight and hate, at the end of the story they are still there for me.. This END of june i'm getting 3 gift for jack, 1 for regi & 1 for ian ...

I will try to get someone taking over his place real soon.. COS i'm happy siewting. =) Yeah!! GoodNight~ =)

Claire @ 12:22 AM