HIhi... Erm wah times really fly, a week never update liao.. Well Well.. Life abit different the last whole week. Seem like back to the past me who drink almost everyday but this time round did have argument with him but i'm not in the upset mood ah? haha So tat's quite weird lo but guess should be okay lah after sometime. Just give him time to cool down lo. =) Forcing bring us no where. =P

A bad news to share to u guys. My restaurant closing down le... Kind of upset lah cos i dunno wat i should do. It's actually take over by any boss but to my personal comment i dun really feel good working with them. SO SO SO was thinking of changing to another job. Anyway working F & B line rather quite tired lo. Really very very tired and dun even have time to enjoy. ARGH! Play ish not my life but dunno why seen i quarrel with him my mind suddenly changing to another person. Feel like trying out wat in the past i have never try before. But i know my parent quite worry lah which i dun really like them to be like this. Very sad to me! cos when i'm drunk i dun sleep at my bed cos never bath den will lie down at living room and so they know i drink alot. But well.. I'm still not mature at all. SAD*

But indeed in the past dun really know how to think. Now i try my best to enjoy myself.. Drinking at pub after work ish kind of way to relax. As wat i think i do have wat i wan now but just short of someone. =(

Tonight program: Club/Chill
Tues :OFF (Will be at malaysia) =)
Wed-Sun : Work follow by pub ba

Anyway if u all do have lobang for office job dun forget me hor.. haha lols. Intro me in! =) Take care blog again soon..

It's me!! Alone working split shift today.. Argh feeling so lonely now sitting outside my restaurant table waiting for time to passes.. = Saw him online but never tot of clicking on him and chat with him.. Maybe tat's wat i mean by slowly let go.. Sooner later there will sure be someone coming into my life ba~ Well tat's wat i mean by life cycle =)

Indeed few days ago i lost three important friends "REGI,MIKE,IAN". But till today i manage to get back with REGI & MIKE not as good as last time but still manage to talk. But i think this ish more den enough for me,it's rather good not to get too close with one another cos if anything got to happened to us us again i guess the pain ish rather quite difficult to heal ba~ As for IAN it might need sometime for us to get back not as usual us but usual friend. Have a complicated relationship before with him but that's not an excuse for me to avoiding him, i think i dun regret in anything we do before but if one day i got to recall those moment we spend tgt i will smile all way.. =)

Tomorrow will be my off day! In the past i only like to spend my free time with him and just only tot of going out with him. But from this week onward i got to crack my brain thinking who should i go out with. But well, i'm so touch by a friend.. She's so busy with her this week schedule ,tat she think she didn't even have time for her BF but she leave her tues schedule empty just to accompany me during my off day? Thanks EUNICE (tear drop*) lols I like my work friends so much, they simply just care for me so much. Even my BRO JUSTIN know tat i wanna to get myself the original Helmet bag and he rang me up last night asking me when ish my OFF DAY and he fetch me there. Look? are you all envy tat i got so many good friends? Without him i still have so many people to dote on me.. Even my manager told me when u feeling upset,the person i can look for ish him... =) So great so great!! Thanks to all~

No matter wat happened to me, there's still always someone out there to take care of me.. I have a great family too.. Thanks to all~ =) XieXie Da Jia!! =P

I miss him so much BUT we ended with fierce quarrel yesterday afternoon..

IAN TEO, no point getting so pissed or angry with me.. Maybe this ish the time for us to think and decide to stop or continue.. If after cooling down and we can't get back to usual us i believe we are always good friend.. Seriously i dun wish to lose a friend like you cos i always believe you are a very good friend tat i can mix with.. I'm feeling rather upset and i do believe you have the same feeling as me now (Seem like a close friends having seriously argument) . Anyway, i treat wat you say yesterday to me ish out of anger ba~ Will look you up after sometime..

After the argue with him i feel so much great (It's like i release all the anger out). But i realise tat this morning when i wake up the very first person came into my mind ish HIM!! Today working 8am-4pm and the moment before i off work the person tat came into my mind ish HIM again.. Thinking and thinking tat last Sunday he ish still there to pick me up after work but this week everything gone~ No longer having any chance to have him pick me up after work le.. Well.. Actually it's quite difficult for me to forget him at my work place.. No matter wat there's always someone out there to remind me about him.. How's ian? Wat he working as? Why he so long never work? Are you together with him? More and more qns about him.. Looking at REGI bike can let me think of him,Looking at REGI helmet can let me think of him cos he brought the same helmet as REGI for me.. Sometime some guest just look like him,really feel like hugging him.

But we won't have happiness together de. Last time i tot i can accept everything,everything happened between him and jo but came to realise it's really very difficult, because of their relationship i got to totally give up more den 50% of wat we use to do.. I dunno i really dunno, i dun think i deserve this type of treatment from him... Maybe let him settle down with jo first ba.. It's time for me to have holiday and get refresh of myself, it's time for me to find back my souls.

IAN, i hope you can read this post and understand our argument ish not for fun but it's time for us to think about it. Ya, we use to have argument for a month and get back as usual but for this time it won't take a month to decide let's give each other an answer asap ba.. Take care!!! =

Sometime i really dunno wat am i doing?? The feeling not there anymore but why i still miss him so much? We are almost the gone case but why i still wan to continue with him?why we still can continue??? I really dunno~ Really really dun understand who am i? Haiz~Why do we end up having agreement with each other? Can't we be like last time happily passes one day and day? Why the moment i have him he met the gal he like? Why am i always forever so unlucky in love life? Why? Why? Why? =( Drunk~ Goodnight! we are back to normal again~ Erm...... =) =( ???

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I dunno when u will read my blog but i hope ASAP!!!

Surprise why i suddenly blog about this song?? Anyway the title ish "Fang Sheng" in english it means "Let Go".. In life we can't forget anyone but we can let go,tat's the topic i will focus on today cos i make 3 decision today.

Ian i'm sorry,i'm not crazy about anything or angry or unreasonable but really we are not like as usual anymore le... U can just missing for the whole day or well it's been so many days u didn't call me at night le... You wan me to be understanding cos u have her and u dun have time for me... how long do you wan me to wait,keep staring at my HP hoping one day night u will rang up and chat with me just like last time.. Never Never not even a sms~ Even if i send sms to u,i didn't get reply too.. U say before our relationship need not put in effort but i appreciate it tat u say no but actually u did..When i'm angry or wanna to meet u, u try ur best to turn up or came all the way to my place just like tuesday we stay far away from each other but u make the effort.(EAST TO WEST)

Overall it's hard for you to make decision cos u love her but u dun wanna to hurt me cos we start off few months ago le and we so use it to each other but time up means time up. Today 19April07 i help u make a decision kk : Always stay happy with Joanne k?? You can't handle two gal at one time.. Give her happiness, i rather i get hurt den me and her get hurt tgt. Anyway, by now i'm quite okay u never call me or sms me le.. Just tat will get miss you but i will look at the gift u give me or the photo de.. Just continue not to contact me anymore.. I will look you up after i totally let go of the feeling,fade alot alot alot le so it's much easy i guess. If one day out of sudden i sms u just dun care of me k? This ish wat i request from u,
I'm too emotional le so never even reply or pick up my call.. Thanks Really have a great time with you... Concentrate at ur work,family and ONLY joanne kk? =) Sorry after blogging this i will login in to ur friendster cos i really wan to delete the pic we take with alicia and doron.. U upload not becos of them but i know ish me but i really find tat pic so worst and no point now still putting tat pic(I know u just wan me to be happy,thanks) maybe as a friend put a nice pic of me ba~ =)
Actually from other people point of view they will think u so bad,so flirt all bad comment but to me u really treat me very well, even much more better den all my ex BF cos i know u dote alot on me and u always give in to me,u care for me,u think for me.. Thanks ian Thanks Thanks... =) After this decision u won't get stress anymore le.. cos u dun have me so unreasonable.. Sorry ah,i know i am very unreasonable but u still take it. So kind of you too bad i dun have the fate to keep u by my side.. =(

Anyway, Ms Lee : You won't get to read my post and i hope u won't get chance to know this link too. But just wanna to tell you ur BF really love you lot,i believe you are the one tat can control him.. =) I'm sorry for holding on to him so long now i will return it back to you.. Hoping he will hold ur hand till old.. Best wishes to you and him.. =) Blessing from forever cheerful tong(SiewTing)

Birthday over le....I'm 18 liao~ Heez s can't set password to access to my blog ah..shit how sia
????But I hope no more unexpected things to happened again anymore.. PLS SHORT HOR? dun scare me anymore.. =( i guess i need to give u a new nick name liao(Just in case) =P

I know i'm very unreasonable today short but thanks for coming down to meet me.. But indeed just hope tat i can spend my bdae with u mah~ Very short timing but at least i enjoy it with the one i like which ish u.. Thanks alot.. I Miss you so so so much... Muackz Muackz.. Goodnight~

Hi Short,(Personal post to you)
Erm.. This ish the only way of communicate with you ya?? SMS u no longer as safe as last time le,CALL u also not very good idea,MEET UP even worst.. Hmm lols but not going to last long lo.. =) Start to emotional! Well,Actually plan to meet u all out today for my birthday celebration : Jovi,Norman,You & Jo ... Not really for fun but just to clarify tat me and you really have nothing going on,we are just close friend.. But Well think no such need liao ba ur future ish in ur hand,work towards it ba.. Jia You wor.. Hoping one day i can receive ur invitation of you and her.. Haha =) Tot tat in e past can't really survive without you cos too use to have you le but guess new life,new year everything got to change.. Seem like days never chat on phone or wat le.. Finding you and me very apart from each other liao.. Seem so cold when sms u,going out with u not as close as last time le.. We look more like stranger to each other.. Anyway not complaining to you but i think it's okay ba.. As long as you are happy,Take care always kk?? Thanks god for letting me to meet this guy in my life,really appreciate it alot.. I really have lot of happy moment with him and will never regret in my life of meeting him. Thanks Teo~ I believe you are a great guy.. We are always good friends ya? For the bag,sorry about it i get u the one jack brought and i take back e original k? Jovi will help me pass to u ba.. Enjoy ur holiday with jo, take good care of her k? =) Tong~ Keep u update if got anything to tell u ba~ Read my blog more ya but pls dun kana urself again by her,something tat i dun wish to happen to me and dun wish to see you argue with her about me(So call lah). Goodnight! Sweet dream!

Happy Birthday to me,Happy Birthday to me,Happy birthday to ME,Happy Birthday to Meeeee.. haha Sound so lame right???? Anyway my Birthday ish actually tml lo 17th April... I'm one year older le! Erm.. Legal to drink/smoke/club etc...... But i'm not those type of people lah so 18 or not ish still the same... =) The following picture ish taken when i having my chalet @ The Chevron's last thursday.. Erm did enjoy alot tat day,looking at my family member arriving, SQSS sister arriving, work friends,good friends coming and of cos the one i love coming over too... Thanks all for coming to my chalet,taking up all ur time ah.. Appreciate it alot alot ... Hug to all!!! =)















MY PRESENT~

Tat's the present i receive tat day... haha~ Slowly let me explain in detail.. The Helmet ish from HIM..( Fav of all lah) , The beautiful tube gift from my SQS sister ( Fav also) , Adidas bag ish from HuiLoo , Golden Hello Kitty ish From Jas & Ruby (Thanks) , Coach bag ish from REGI & Rachel (Fav also) , MAke up Set ish from my cousin & Samantha & Lai Kuan , Lastly ish my lappy bag from my sister and aunty.. Thanks all.. And never forget all RED PACKET too. Thanks C.K,Kang Rui, Chris,Ah Ma,Aunty,Uncle...Well, Tml ish my actually day of birthday.. Still not yet decide to go out with who but the one i hope to go out/spend time with he might not be there for me... Argh! I dun even dare to voice out to him asking him to go out.. Actually after the last two date with him i kind of scare going out with him cos his GF seem to find out something fishy lah.. Den as a gal i also rather quite sensitive with the guy i like doing this and tat so i can feel how his GF feeling lah but indeed i take wat my friends say "I'm still young lo,do something tat i wan now as long as i'm happy.." But life will be quite different compare to last time le.. This ish the only place i can say I MISS YOU,I LIKE YOU,I LOVE YOU,HUGGIE.. erm.. Rather sound quite sad lo but i'm strong enough lah.. Can feel tat he rather quite scare lo,going out with him no longer so close anymore le.. Everything start to change change change.. Well anyway yesterday he came RC to Pick me up after work.. Rather quite surprise lo,didn't expect he will do tat.. But the feeling rather quite great lo.. Feel so good! Erm but wonder when ish the next time i can go out with him?? Recently got to keep distance from each other lo, but i know he can handle the problem himself seen he wanna tell Jo about us.. I choose not to think too much,if i miss him i'll call or sms him ba~ Still think last time meeting method ish the best " The most dangerous places ish always the most safe place". Well shall see how soon..Lols Always look on the bright side lo.. It's mine means it's mine,not mine no matter how hard i try we still dun have fate to meet each other... But god did give me an ans "The ans turn out to be positive lo" Sometime wondering if wat i'm doing ish the correct way or wrong but well as long as in ur heart i got 5% can liao..(As long as u happy i happy) U remember can le lo~ Ian i miss you so much!!!!!!Hug* =) Thanks to him too.. I think indeed he spend alot money on me this weeks ah.. Guess more got $200 lo,my gift and dinner (Buffet,Restaurant).. Thanks Shorty...Huggie Huggie~
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Erm... tat's fast right?? It's my chalet today!!! Argh! time flew ya?? Wake up at 10am, went to kitchen and saw mum cooking curry chicken and chopping ingredient for the Bee Hoon later... lols while me slacking all along lah.. But taste my dessert just now, well wat i can say ish great improvement lo since the first time i make, not very hard or soft.. Just nice.. anyway~ just prepare little portion so not sure if enough or not lah but well see luck ba.. haha

Anyway will keep post of the pic few days later ya? Wait wor~ Huggie* =)

Erm....
It's the ninth days of this month le.. So fast right??? haha 2 days later will be my chalet @ Chevron's lo... haha I'm soon 1 year older le,must learn alot alot thing liao~ =P
Surprise why am i home so early today?? Yeah it's ash tat release me early from work but well indeed no fate to meet him lo... ERMMMMM....

Seem like two different people in two different world. A world tat will never get to meet each other.. We seem so near by yet so far~ Really miss hugging him really really really!! Argh! Stop thinking so much gal~ Cheer up always cos u have a group of good friends there for u always.. =)

Getting my present from him soon!! BY THIS WEEK!! Either thursday or sunday lo.. But really hope ish thursday lo cos sunday got few date ba~ Well, but it's difficult for him to choose to go out with who lo~But i know his choose Haiz smile smile smile smile~ I always the cheerful tong tong tong tong.... haha Act cute again le... Muhahahaha~ =)

Feeling tat we are drifting apart from each other le.. Erm but learn to smile when he ish not by my side or not there for me.. COS he will never be at my side,sooner or later he will leave me de...We are close friend now and will definitely for future too.. Indeed he treat me very well, wat i wan he will try to give me, he try his best to accompany me during my free days but this type of life won't last long de... No matter wat i always believe tat a guy ish only match for a gal, there isn't any extra space for the third person to step in.. Anyway, glad to meet u as a friend... I do treasure the time we use to spend together and really have a great time with you all these months.. Telling u :I like u of wat u are, even if u have scar on ur face or u are very very very poor or even u are handicap(touch wood) just wanna to tell u i like you as wat u are not becos of ur look or wat so ever.. But finding tat actually to be love/dote by someone ish much better den loving someone tat don't love u at all.. Feeling can be develop de!Depending if we wan it or not?? Life goes on~ Waiting for tat someone to dote on me.. Heez

Anyway,really didn't treasure friends around me... When i lose them le den regret.. Just like gilbert for example, really a great friend to hung out with but seem like he ish avoiding me le.. Argh!! Yesterday there's this friend who fetch me home after work.. But really appreciate his effort lo, travel from my house to work place den go home, he stay around my area... haha indeed quite honoured to be the first gal lo.. lols~ Quite shock his quite stable driving such a big model of car.. Erm.. wonder how i look if i'm driving it, guess mini car suit me.. Haha~ Thanks YW =)

Less contact,less sms,less call from him.. Less meet too! Well, I'm accepting the fact now~ Got a strong feeling ur this relationship will last long lo, cos she ish much mature den u and she know how to think.. This ish the type of gal tat suit u ba,not like me ,make u angry almost everyday,stress u too!! Really sorry for creating so much trouble all along.. Muackz Sorry~ Take care k? Byez huggie* Waiting for my gift and dinner treat!!! Dun owe me too long ya? =)

It's my off day today!! But didn't really get enough sleep cos my stupid sister wake me up at 10 asking me to go orchard and buy a bag. Erm.. But i like it alot, it's crumpler laptop bag.. She share with my fourth aunt.. Thanks alot for getting me a birthday present.. Heez After tat went to eat sushi with my sister (Fav).. haha Den process home!! Well tot of going out to chill with friends but end up i think need some saving for next week BBQ so stay at home with my parent. We went to SengSong to get some stuff for my next week BBQ. Just like brought 24 cans beer, Drink, Cup, Dry item and already cost me $90+++.. So expensive leh!! Wanna broke le, lols..

My new bag~





Erm.. Didn't went out with him today~ But okie lah cos abit expected he quite busy with his stuff lo.. Sometime must learn to accept and forget, at least he got remember me can le.. =) Yup he promise to get me the present i wanted from him but ish after birthday.. Tat's wat he told me but wonder ish after chalet or birthday?? But well,really hope he could be the one celebrating my actual day birthday with me.. Never try before celebrating with the guy i love lo/spending the moment tgt.. But it's a tues? Guess he might need to accompany someone else too ba.. Well, check out with him when the day ish nearer.. Anyway thanks thanks for pamper me so long, able to swallow my unreasonable attitude and willing to forgive me everytime..hug hug* Really find hard to get find someone like this but i guess there's more and more out there.. I do believe if one day u found urself another gal tat u love alot u will dote her alot and be a great BF. Hoping this day to come fast ya? =) But really wan tell u i still like u but we are forever gd friend or forever can only be wat we are now.. Really miss you alot alot alot~







Yup~ So sweet right this drink tat can cheer me up? But not from him,it's from my bro "Justin". Erm actually sometime he really quite honest to me and really treat me like his gd friends,sharing all type of problem with me but i really dun like guy to treat GF bad de. Dun like her look den get tgt with her can? Treat her good/ sweet talk with her, u won't hurt her but make her happy? Next time i needed give u a lesson on how to handle gal. lols but still thanks for cheering me up with this drink when i quarrel with someone. =) How i wish he can make me a drink from his heart. Try before his cooking and his milo. lols miss it so much!! Erm.. when can i drink again??? haha (WEI I HINT YOU TO MAKE A DRINK FOR ME WHEN WE MEET THE NEXT TIME AH) lols






Look my restaurant front view.. it's river?? This ish the place i will face when i'm unhappy/happy. I cry there before and smile there before.. A river tat use to have my happiness and unhappiness.. The view so nice right?? Free feel to come my work place eat ah? Not very expensive but it's really nice wor.. "RIVERCAFE"!! Yeah yeah i'm so proud of it~ Really!!

I miss you alot short!!!Do u know it? Erm... Goodnight! Sweet dream.. =)

Erm.. Been so long never blog le.. Not really hor? just 3 days But indeed these three days did happened alot of thing. Em same old thing quarrel with him yesterday but well, manage to get back as normal with him le.. =) But also decided to make a surprise for him! Confirm he get angry but i'm halfway to it lo~ Spending lot of time ya? And also understand friends who allow me to finish doing it during work time.. so glad~

My saver "Mr spider ASH"!! haha he save my life when i'm working.. 1000/millions of thanks to him~ haha Well, so my birthday celebration ish just next week. Receive sms from my aunt requesting me to write down a Wish List for my birthday? Erm well.. Let me think about it.. Dun really need anything but i can just state it down.

-Necklace(Lost mine SK few months ago) =(
-Helmet(Request for him to buy for me,something tat able to make me remember him)
-Crumpler laptop Bag (My sis paying half price,aunt half)
-Linksys Router( Just got a laptop)
-Watches ( Sweet design pls) haha
-Money (haha)
-Hug(From my Part time BF) lols

Thanks for calling me and cheer me up! At least i know you still care for me! Thanks~ Love you* Huggie*

Erm.. Was sitting in front of River now,getting lot of thing to blog inside my brain. Argh! Wat i blog might lead to quarrel with him ba,but keeping it to myself make me hurt lo,hard to find listening ears too.. But my motive was not to have any argument with you but i really feel hard to survive,i need to release some of my unhappiness.

Sometime i rather i assume thing between u and her den u told me . At least assuming i can accept it cos it's not say by u but wat i think. Once it's say by u means it's the real fact and i got to accept it. Sometime i really dun understand wat am i? How i can accept all this thing to happened to me. There's times tat i really just can't accept the fact that's when my emotional will take part which just like today.. I dunno why i just start getting very pissed with you but yet i dun wanna quarrel with u cos i know it will hurt our relationship lo. WAT FOR? Argh! Really not i assuming too much or wat but i really feel tat u did have great changes. But from good to bad~ Wat u use to say u didn't do but just a "Sorry"?I like u tat's why i'm worry for u! A call/SMS means nothing to u but it means alot to me.. Yup all this ish just small thing but 10 small things add together ish equal to one big thing! Do u really understand how i'm feeling right know? My heart feel ache now but i dun dare to tell u cos i really dun wish to have any argument with u, avoiding this type of matter with u ish the best but end up the one feeling bad will always be me.

I dun find tat why should i be the one giving up on something i wanted for so long ago? Putting in so much effort in the past, Creating from nothing to something. Why should i be the one??? Why ish god so unfair to me? Wat did i do in my previous life to get all this shit from the one i love??I really dunno lo~ Sometime i rather u keep everything from me,hide from me,telling me nothing!! Cheat on me telling me u go out with ur guy friends den telling me u are with her? I'm a gal too how will i feel when i get to know everything! Telling you again i'm not as strong as wat u think.. I also need a hug from u,some care/concern from u. Yup i never say u not treating me good. I find u treating me better den last time but indeed straight forwards words tat hurt me did increase also tat i feel very difficult to accept.but i'm trying my very best to accept it le. Haiz i really trying my best u know?? wat else can i do? I'm young plus stupid! Why not u teach me better can??? sorry but indeed i find myself still having feeling with u tat's why i dun wish to let go.