STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!!!
I really dunno wat i wan in my life? HaiZz~ Yup i'm still very young,still long way of life but i really find it hard to move on. Working life/Studies life/Love life??? Did i really choose the wrong choice of joining RC?? I find myself so lonely without anyone to accompany when needed.. Who can i approach???? U?? i doubt so~ Really find hard time looking for real friends!! WHAT I WAN FOR MY CAREER??? ARGH!!!!!!

Decided to learn riding bike~ I guess if i'm really stress i can ride on it and race it ba~ Really find it shoick when riding from one end to another end,nv try before but Get free ride from friends before.. erm.. should i?

Start schooling on june ba~ Time to change job ba!! Will try to work hard in RC till the correct timing of leaving.. I'll make sure i really make good planning for my future. Love life? Erm..indeed should move on but i guess i'm quite alright with him now~ As long as no quarrel we still can last for sometime ba! So just wanna leave my relationship like now ba,no changes for this~ Erm..

I'm tired!! Anyone out there willing to learn me ur shoulder? Will u always be by my side? Will u take care of me? Will uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu?????????????

OFF DAY!!!!

Erm.. I'm so happy today,i feel so freedom when i'm with him.. But start to scare losing him le, really very scare!! But indeed i really enjoy my every moment with him.. Really Really~ I hope we can continue all the way till the correct time of stopping. I dun wish to get hurt and i know he won't hurt me too.. I'm happy,indeed very very very happy!!! I really wan to let u know : I hope i can really spend my every off days with uuuuu and only uuuuu... =) Sorry~

Happy today!! Cos i chat with him just now on phone, Feeling like back to usual le.. No quarrel and normal chat lo. Thanks Really happy lo~ haha!! Misssss Himmmm...... Nite Nite!

Really Miss him so much,but really dun have the time to meet him or the fate to meet him lo.. Agrh! He getting more and more busy with work and his commitment lo.. haiz How i wish he could be like last time,so free on wed or any day if i wanna meet him. Everything change alot le.. Well, wat to do, life got to moved on even it's no longer the same as last time le.. Finding my attitude toward him getting from bad to worst lo & really think he got problem trusting me again!Sianz But Time to really change my attitude,i think no matter how tough the guy ish also cannot take it sia,and so of cos he can't lo.For my future BF/Husband sake* How can i earn back the trust from him? hmmm But worth it ma?

If u really wanna to do something,there's always way to do it... Tat's wat i think lo,if really wanna accompany me during my chalet,there's always way to do it de. Erm.. Well, Anyway hi all friends i'm having CHALET @ THE CHEVRON'S - Boon lay way! Nearest MRT station ish Jurong East. It's a gift from my sister BF before he leave to US. Argh! Indeed miss his voice lo, Cannot fight with him for 2 years. No one fetch me out to eat supper/bowling! SianZz

Hope to meet him soon ba~ =) Lot's of hug*

Hello All~ erm.. Starting a need week le~ Indeed time passes very fast this year,i'm turning 18 in 3 weeks time. BUTTTT tat doesn't mean i can do anything wor.. lols By the time my future brother-in-law back i'm 20 le... Tat's like so fast ya? Just send him off to US this morning~ -SAD- From today on my sister got to be independent for 2 years, surviving without BF.. haha~ No different from me ya? But at least i got someone by my side,but me also learning to be independent,trying my best cos know sooner or later he got to leave me alone too. But at the moment now i just want to spend my happy moment with him lo.. Argh! Guess i'm the most lucky person ba~ But planning to contact less lo,i find my work very important to me.. I hope i can achieved something from there before i move on to my next step which ish continue to studies lo..

Well, quite a busy week ba? Off day on Thursday but still not yet plan wat to do? Hard to go out with the one i wish to spent time with.. erm.. RATHER quite upset lo.. =(

FAV SONG!!!!!! - so meaningful to me cos i still believe!!! =)

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Finally after 10 days i can get to meet him again.. ARGH!*Happy* Within 10 days really have lot of quarrel which i really dun wish to happened again le.. All becos of me,i dun treasure wat he do for me until now den i find tat i really got to treasure wat he do for me.. Not everyone can get a chance to be with someone they loved!!From now on i really got to learn how to treasure him le,not becos of love but becos i start notice tat actually he ish a good guy compare to wat i heard from friends...Some action he do might be wat they say but not all.. It's really my fate tat we can't be tgt but i'm happy with wat we are now.. Guess most ppls know wat happened between us,but really nothing can stop me ba cos i'm indeed happy when i'm with him.. I find him quite important to me,love him or not does not matter anymore. =)

I hope u really understand tat i really dun wish anything to happened to us k? Without u i can survive but with u around i'm much more more happy~ I will try my best to stand in ur shoes,think for u and be reasonable. REALLY even now there's some changes in ur life but i do believe it won't affect us ba cos it's always as usual. Overall really wan tell u : I learn to change and treasure wat ish given to me and time to change my attitude towards u(Not going to be unreasonable anymore) COS i wan both of us to be happy always ba. I'm young but i know wat ish important to me & tat's ish Family,Work,You,Friends!!! 4 big important things ya? Huggie* Thanks for wat u do today i won't KP anymore k? Smile to u always heeZ =) =) =)

=) Having two off days this week.Today ish my first off day,Erm rather quite tired lo.. Yawns* Went watching movie in e afternoon "Haunted School". Wah quite a nice show lo,really~ I only like watch ghost movie other den tat not really interested lo.... Yuppie my next off day ish on thurs lo,guess will be quite busy cos nite time having my sis bf chalet.He ish leaving us to USA for 2 years. Guess my sis will be the most upset de ba,two years without bf.. Guess will send him off on sunday morning lo. Wanna see show,how they cry* lols i sound so bad!

Well as for me?? Erm tired of life lo,still the same old life yeah? I still have him,i still have my friends and work. I have everything i wanted,so glad so glad~ Guess wat i need now ish time ba! Dun have enough time to do things tat i wanna lo.. Miss all my friends badly,Wonder during my bdae should i invite them to house or treat them to Japanese restaurant for dinner???? ARGH!!!!

Missing him missing him~ Nite Nite!

Time to blog le!! Argh! Was not feeling well today so work till 1 pm den went home le.Haiz really so unlucky to sick now!!! Wrong timing~

Recently really very unlucky,i dunno why i can't communicate well with all my best friends anyone.Every week will at least quarrel with one people. I really trying to figure out wat did i do wrong?? Last week ish C.K,this week ish Regi/Doron. But well,me and doron okay le but not tat two. wonder wat i should do? Wanna get a review from jack soon,Really wanna to know how bad i am since working as full time.But he just say ish settlement,well will find him during my free time.

Everyone think tat Love relationship ish much important den my work,tat's why they dun like me but really wrong lo!I did treasure well this job ish just tat recently dunno why keep quarrel with friends and him. But alright i think about it and really wanna to concentrate on working and make sure i really stable at work.

I'm tired of working there,but no matter wat i will hung on and prove to u all tat i can do it. The more u all wan to bully me the more i wanna prove to u all. And wat i can say ish i nv change before, no matter ish as Full time or Part time. I dun use my position to ask anyone to do thing?If really i did i will attack those staff i dun like wat for i attack someone tat close to me. No matter wat i say no one will believe in me,I guess i got to work more independent now and depend on myself to prove out result! =) Yes i believe i can cos i got someone always there to support me ya? hug hug*

I'm really so tired now!!! But i got no one to turn in,to talk about my very bad feeling today which ish 14 March 2007. Suddenly i feel so lonely without friends tat i can talk to and i can no longer talk to the one i use to share my problem which ish the one i love. I dun dare to tell Michael or regi the bad feeling i have,they accompany me to Kbox and tat's all i can request from them.

I really like to tell u alot alot of thing but chances are getting lower and lower,starting from today it's honeymoon period for you and jo,there's no addition space for me an outsider to step in,as usual? Can we really be like as usual?? It's just the first day and i see changes,u told me nothing will change but totally wrong!! You dun have the time to reply my sms anymore or no time to give me a call which u did it b4 today~ But i know i can't request anything from u cos i got no right!! When we quarrel today u got jo to be with but wat about me? I can only cry in front of river to cool myself down...

Are u sure as usual we can be as happy as wat we used to be??? No matter wat in ur heart she will always come first,i'm just nothing!Nothing to u!! Really have a great time when i'm with u,but i guess if i wan it also won't happen anymore~ You are totally gone! Not hiding anything from u,trying to tell u how i feel? I think sms/call dun work on us anymore? I believe we will have lot quarrel tat's why u didn't ring me up today or u think tat no such need anymore?

I know after reading u will get angry or disappointed? But wat i can say i'm hundred/thousand/million times more hurt more upset more disappointed den u do! You didn't do wat u say! Haiz Well Ian as wat i say as long as u happy can le? I really dunno how to face these problem myself!! I can't share my problem with my friends too, i got to survive myself! Some more u can say u dun trust me anymore? Everything i do for u ish just like flushing down to toilet bowl!! No one care No one understand! Will u care for me anymore???????? =(

-UPSET TONG-

HI..
Erm fifth day of working le!! Today ish also my off day,really very tired working spilt shift.. Argh!! Anyway there's a different working as part time Staff and Full time staff.. As time goes by more and more stress will be added to me.. Just few day of working and i did lot of mistake,really quite disappointed with myself! Guess i got to change some of my bad habit le,i have grown up,no longer young pamper gal!! haha lols

Yup~ So guys how are u all le??? Didn't really have time to contact my friends or meet them out.. Rather slack at home during my off day,really miss my house so so much,especially my bed!!!! I can't sleep on them long,haha Disappointing sia!!!! Earning money ish important now ba,need lot of saving! =)

As for my relationship thingy?? Guess i won't bother much ba,will leave it like wat we are now.. I'm happy and he ish happy too! =) I have my job,I have chance to be with the one i like,I have a good family,I have alot good friends around me!! So i never expect anything more nor wanna anything to lose away! ya??????? Take care!!!!