` Claire

Sunday, April 22, 2007

I miss him so much BUT we ended with fierce quarrel yesterday afternoon..

IAN TEO, no point getting so pissed or angry with me.. Maybe this ish the time for us to think and decide to stop or continue.. If after cooling down and we can't get back to usual us i believe we are always good friend.. Seriously i dun wish to lose a friend like you cos i always believe you are a very good friend tat i can mix with.. I'm feeling rather upset and i do believe you have the same feeling as me now (Seem like a close friends having seriously argument) . Anyway, i treat wat you say yesterday to me ish out of anger ba~ Will look you up after sometime..

After the argue with him i feel so much great (It's like i release all the anger out). But i realise tat this morning when i wake up the very first person came into my mind ish HIM!! Today working 8am-4pm and the moment before i off work the person tat came into my mind ish HIM again.. Thinking and thinking tat last Sunday he ish still there to pick me up after work but this week everything gone~ No longer having any chance to have him pick me up after work le.. Well.. Actually it's quite difficult for me to forget him at my work place.. No matter wat there's always someone out there to remind me about him.. How's ian? Wat he working as? Why he so long never work? Are you together with him? More and more qns about him.. Looking at REGI bike can let me think of him,Looking at REGI helmet can let me think of him cos he brought the same helmet as REGI for me.. Sometime some guest just look like him,really feel like hugging him.

But we won't have happiness together de. Last time i tot i can accept everything,everything happened between him and jo but came to realise it's really very difficult, because of their relationship i got to totally give up more den 50% of wat we use to do.. I dunno i really dunno, i dun think i deserve this type of treatment from him... Maybe let him settle down with jo first ba.. It's time for me to have holiday and get refresh of myself, it's time for me to find back my souls.

IAN, i hope you can read this post and understand our argument ish not for fun but it's time for us to think about it. Ya, we use to have argument for a month and get back as usual but for this time it won't take a month to decide let's give each other an answer asap ba.. Take care!!! =

Claire @ 8:01 PM