` Claire

Thursday, March 15, 2007

I'm really so tired now!!! But i got no one to turn in,to talk about my very bad feeling today which ish 14 March 2007. Suddenly i feel so lonely without friends tat i can talk to and i can no longer talk to the one i use to share my problem which ish the one i love. I dun dare to tell Michael or regi the bad feeling i have,they accompany me to Kbox and tat's all i can request from them.

I really like to tell u alot alot of thing but chances are getting lower and lower,starting from today it's honeymoon period for you and jo,there's no addition space for me an outsider to step in,as usual? Can we really be like as usual?? It's just the first day and i see changes,u told me nothing will change but totally wrong!! You dun have the time to reply my sms anymore or no time to give me a call which u did it b4 today~ But i know i can't request anything from u cos i got no right!! When we quarrel today u got jo to be with but wat about me? I can only cry in front of river to cool myself down...

Are u sure as usual we can be as happy as wat we used to be??? No matter wat in ur heart she will always come first,i'm just nothing!Nothing to u!! Really have a great time when i'm with u,but i guess if i wan it also won't happen anymore~ You are totally gone! Not hiding anything from u,trying to tell u how i feel? I think sms/call dun work on us anymore? I believe we will have lot quarrel tat's why u didn't ring me up today or u think tat no such need anymore?

I know after reading u will get angry or disappointed? But wat i can say i'm hundred/thousand/million times more hurt more upset more disappointed den u do! You didn't do wat u say! Haiz Well Ian as wat i say as long as u happy can le? I really dunno how to face these problem myself!! I can't share my problem with my friends too, i got to survive myself! Some more u can say u dun trust me anymore? Everything i do for u ish just like flushing down to toilet bowl!! No one care No one understand! Will u care for me anymore???????? =(

-UPSET TONG-

Claire @ 2:52 AM